Thursday, May 3, 2018

Sara’s emotions...

It’s been a rough couple weeks and I am finding it difficult to shake off my emotions. Here’s to getting my emotions out and releasing them into the world! Here’s the randomness in my heart:

Lewis turning 3 = a lot more whining, crying, screaming, frustration and this momma hasn’t been very all.

Why am I so moody and have these crazy mood swings?!??  Can I blame it on too much coffee? Too many sweets? Too much gluten?  Getting up at 5am to have quiet time before the boys wake up and support Bill (and him supporting me) in exercising? My knee causing pain and being back in physical therapy twice a week? I was in such pain and frustration on Wednesday that I actually shed tears to Dr. Bart at Kinetics...thankfully he comforted me with letting me know that knee injuries take longer to heal because we are constantly using our knees. It really helped me in feeling assured that it won’t heal over night and slow and steady.

The high volumes of spirited boys is HARD. Trying to remember it’s one step forward and two steps back. Trying to get Harrison to open up to his emotions is tough. I assure him that mommy and daddy are here whenever he is ready to talk. I am working on changing “why” questions with “how.”

It’s truly amazing how much love, tenderness, and spirit our boys can have.

The act of asking for help from God and looking up into the sky and lifting up my struggles is hard. I am constantly thanking God and praying for others however praying for me (I can do this on my own/I want to be in control) is hard.

Trying to stop and breathe in God while exhaling anxiety...

1 comment:

laura said...

love you friend, press on!!!!