|We love Halloween at our house! This year Harrison and Lewis were in charge of decorating.|
|After a week of major sanding and many trips to the hardware store, the door is almost complete|
I was able to accomplish a lot last night. I finished the journal I had been working on and read through the next one. July 2000-2003 was emotional. Emotional to read the words I wrote and the heartache of my teenage and young adult self.
I used to feel like I was unforgivable. I was not and am not. I learned so much from my deep mistakes and the journey I have been on.
I want to scream from the top of mountains to all teenagers and young adults that what they are going through is not the end. They will travel down dark holes as they navigate themselves. Some will travel down deeper and darker holes then others. You will make mistakes and endure heartaches. Lift your head up and give thanks to God for his forgiveness and love.
You are not broken and not something to be fixed. You are loved deeply and supported by so many. Find your place and your space in this world. Love deeply and pray to the God whom created you. You are not nor will never be perfect. The mistakes and failures are learning points to pick yourself up and go forward, tiny tiny tiny steps. No one is like you, be you and be brave. Spread your wings and fly. There is so much more ahead of you.
Sweet Lewis, the moment I held you for the first time, I started singing “Great is Thy Faithfulness.”God is so good and life is HARD at times. Being on this mommy road of two boys has been filled with more bumps, steep drops and curves then I could have ever imagined. Thankfully God is always next to, in front of, and behind Bill and I.